So much has been happening lately, but I really need to put the whole "Wendy Machanik Properties" saga behind me and move forward. Too much time and energy has been spent on the hashing of what happened to us agents and to the lack of cash flow. This situation has totally taken me out of my comfort zone as I have never felt so dependent or trapped before in my life.
To feel so financially cash strapped is so scary - hell I am angry with myself for allowing myself to be put in this situation.
A new opportunity has perhaps arisen, but do I take the plunge and another chance... just not sure whether I am strong enough to carry this on my shoulders...
So onward and upward.... If we ever get the money that she owes us....good - if not - put it down to experience... Hopefully this is the last on this subject.....
Saturday 7 May 2011
Saturday 16 April 2011
About me...
While trying to create this blog profile, the question is asked - who are you? . about me.
Well who am I? Am I the person that I see myself as or am I the person that others see me as?.
So many people have different opinions of who we are. Through different eyes, different images are percieved.
I am seen as a mother by both my children, but am seen differently by each one. My 7 year old son, Sheldon, sees me as his whole world, his idol and his future. On the other hand my 18 year old daughter, Christine, sees me in a different light. She sees me as an ally in some cases, and as an over protective, interferring pain five minutes later.
My mom sees me as a 5 year old child in some cases and a provider, fixer-upper, miracle worker in other cases.
Craig, although we have been together for almost 11 years (with a couple of months wake-up break for him), has yet to really tell me how he sees me. I know he loves me deeply, will never totally open up and let his guard down.
Graeme, my remaining brother, I believe, sees me as a strong, competent individual - although sometimes it is extremely difficult to keep up that facade.
I suppose most importantly, the question is who do I believe that I am. Horror of all horrors... but in all honesty I am actually an extremely vulnerable individual with a low self esteem and lacking self confidence. It is because of all the above people who depend on me, that I have the stamina and strength to keep going. I have to motivate myself daily to put on a brave face, and tackle the world.
The person my collegues and clients see is a confident, intelligent yet slightly introvert professional.
Well who am I? Am I the person that I see myself as or am I the person that others see me as?.
So many people have different opinions of who we are. Through different eyes, different images are percieved.
I am seen as a mother by both my children, but am seen differently by each one. My 7 year old son, Sheldon, sees me as his whole world, his idol and his future. On the other hand my 18 year old daughter, Christine, sees me in a different light. She sees me as an ally in some cases, and as an over protective, interferring pain five minutes later.
My mom sees me as a 5 year old child in some cases and a provider, fixer-upper, miracle worker in other cases.
Craig, although we have been together for almost 11 years (with a couple of months wake-up break for him), has yet to really tell me how he sees me. I know he loves me deeply, will never totally open up and let his guard down.
Graeme, my remaining brother, I believe, sees me as a strong, competent individual - although sometimes it is extremely difficult to keep up that facade.
I suppose most importantly, the question is who do I believe that I am. Horror of all horrors... but in all honesty I am actually an extremely vulnerable individual with a low self esteem and lacking self confidence. It is because of all the above people who depend on me, that I have the stamina and strength to keep going. I have to motivate myself daily to put on a brave face, and tackle the world.
The person my collegues and clients see is a confident, intelligent yet slightly introvert professional.
The Beginning
I have been wanting to start a blog for a long time, but haven't fully been able to understand how it all works and what it is all about. I have taken the big step now and will carry on with this adventure with your help and comments. I am not sure how reads this or who assesses it, but this is the lesson I am about to embark on.
The world is full of people giving their views and opinions, so why should another person add to the over populated cyberworld? The only reasonable answer I can come up with is that BECAUSE WE CAN.....
The world is full of people giving their views and opinions, so why should another person add to the over populated cyberworld? The only reasonable answer I can come up with is that BECAUSE WE CAN.....
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